仙人掌

那一年，
我张开双手，
紧拥那带刺的仙人掌。
刺痛与挣扎，
和我的坚强的意志，
掀开恶劣的战斗。
烈日当下，
我选择搏斗下去。
僵持了好久，
也渐渐地分辨不出，
咸咸的汗水和泪水的味道。
萧萧的风，
像野兽般蹂躏我的信心。
哭了好久，
也笑了好久，
心灰意冷时，
只知道，
始终秉持着的，
是那精神的寄托，
那心灵的归属。

奕斌
1038am

雨

刚下的一场雨，
浇湿了大地，
也浇湿了我的热情。
随着雨滴渐缓，
整个人也变得垂头丧气，
失去斗志...
这场硬仗，
几时才会出现彩虹?

奕斌
354pm

哭了好久

笑了好久

又渐渐入睡

我独自呢喃着你的名字

像个傻瓜

就只是像个傻瓜一般

为什么

几天来一直如此

想见你想得快发疯的我

想忘记想得快发疯的我

好累 我实在太累了

眼泪遮住我的视线

却闪现出你的模样

已经是第几天了 难以入眠

会好起来的

再过几天应该会好起来的

奕斌

856pm

成绩

说到，看到成绩，
不由自主地，
软弱。
旧病复发，
我不想了，
我不要。
为什么非把我逼到死角才甘愿？
不想看到，
那刺刺的两个字：

成绩

奕斌
1246am

Day to day

I dragged my soul along. It ain't heavy, but somehow, it struggled to match my pace. It only shuffled its feet each and everytime i nudged it for being reluctant.


In 5 hours time, we will cross Sunday and head into Monday. The days seem to be so draggy, yet, life is in a mess. Lights out and voices not to be heard in the future just sends a shiver down my spine. Afterall, the bleak future promises no prospects to be thrilled about.


I'm sinking slowly but steadily. Yet another gloomy Monday looms ahead. Heading back to Tanjung Karang seems to be a temporary destination to seek for shelter. But how long will it last? Truth and fate perpetually show its fangs at the peak of my joy and the euphoria immediately vanishes. And I'm again bugged by the fear and cowardy towards life.


I turn back for help but instead of expecting company, I found out that i was the only one fighting this losing battle. I don't have enough resources to fight it. Time will tell when i finally succumb to its superiority...


yikping
708am

唱K

歌声，贝司，
昏暗的灯光，
僵硬的四壁，
随着音符和旋律，
交织出激情和澎湃的画面。
泪水，
任流；
伤感，
燃烧。
一切经过歌曲的洗礼，
变得模糊不清...

奕斌
1259am

释放

他昨晚哭了，
大声的嚎啕，
埋于枕头里头。
一切情绪，
终于获得，
释放。

奕斌
102am

孤独的旅程2

各位早安！
一早起来就去了早市（巴刹）逛逛...
今天的天气还真不错 d(^0^)b















这是从早市回来的路上拍的。顿时有想写部落格的心情 =D
















战利品: RM1的香蕉和 RM2.30的早餐

祝大家过个美好的星期四 ~

奕斌
848am

孤独的旅程

蛋挞当早餐



















游览自己的部落格--夏日乐悠悠 <3


















窗外的天空，阴阴的，好像随时都会下雨。心情也比一般低落...



















空荡荡的房间，唯独电脑陪我渡过。风扇咻咻的在头上旋转，却有挥散不去的寂寞...想·你...

奕斌
1058am

夏日樂悠悠 主題曲--love you you

love you you
我像孤独的渔夫
说不出
爱的温度
想给你的幸福
你却毫不在乎
love you you，却在海里迷了路
love you you，却在海里迷了路
猜不出幸福拘束
心跳乱了脚步，怎么我不懂你唇语之间的无助
就算就用尽所有真心
去得不了你的幸福
给你的咖啡
是我设计的回忆
我用尽所有力气
只要你相信
我最坚持的声音
只是love you you stay with me
i love you

奕斌
1259am

被派来的使者的心声

昨天刮风暴雨，
今天飞沙走石...
路还是要走，
一步一步咬紧牙根。
今天以后的天空，
会是什么颜色？
还是个未知数。
任务完成后，
我会消失的。
当你找不到我的时候，
请不要坚持下去。
因为，
我的任务完成了，
我消失了。
当全世界都不相信你，
自己也开始怀疑自己时，
唯有靠着自己薄薄的一枝，
信心的柱子。
但却没人晓得，
也没人懂得，
信心的柱子长得怎样...
请不要掉泪，
请不要挽留。
让我走，
安心地走...

奕斌
558pm

O&G short case

A dissapointing end to the 7 week long posting
uttering nonsense
making myself a fool
a joker
I just never used my brains
Prof, see u in 6 months time ~
Sorry Dr Y
Sorry everyone who gave me encouragement
I just did not make it

yikping
1133am

是否能，撑到雨过天晴?
雨，
好大，
好冷...

奕斌
230pm

Falling apart, again

I had a headstart,
I thought this was mine to be,
I started off brilliantly.

Yet,
now,
after a gallant run,
a faltered giant,
a miserable adolescent.
It was not to be mine...

I back pedaled,
I screwed my future,
I never recovered.

Tears,
they ought to flow

Fate,
Get me,
Wipe me out.
Now and forever.

yikping
644pm

Bye bye penang

Hours from my departure from penang...
just so unwilling.
I missed the holidays,
and the times where i can laze around...
I'm taking the train,
so,
no jam ^^v

p/s: i will miss u penang...

yikping
640pm

我爱流泪，也爱笑，更常泪中带笑，笑着流泪。


悄悄的，
无声的，
让情绪获得释放。






奕斌
1130pm

会呼吸的痛

奕斌
322pm

倔强

心里最深的心事，
往往无法获得释放。
因为倔强，
宁愿自己咀嚼文字，
也不愿吐露...
让黑夜的黑，
舔着我，
划下的伤口.

奕斌
1236am

失落

失落，像病毒，
蔓延到全身每个角落，
侵略所有的细胞，
占领大脑，
瘫痪灵魂...

奕斌
1226am

Home Cold Home

Penang yet again greeted me with a gloomy look.
Overcast skies and chilly winds accompanied with rain,
the perfect tonic to unwind and take a break =)
A holiday to relax, finally ^^

yikping
1037pm

Hey, it's finally saturday =D

The long awaited saturday has arrived, yet again, to the relief of me. This particular week has been very challenging and traumatizing. So glad that it's over with me still alive.

Lost my laptop last saturday, almost exactly 1 week ago, due to negligence. Nothing to complain about except blaming myself for letting my guard down. Went out for lunch with my laptop in my bag and returned with my beg sitting there without the laptop. How I wished that my bag can speak! haha...Anyway, thanks to UKM security for taking a bother-not approach. But fair enough, it was just not their fault , right?

Immediately after the traumatising incident, went to the labour room as i was on-call. Observed 2 deliveries and 2 caesarean sections. My brain was totally blank throughout that night...haha

2 weeks into O&G and the stakes are already rising. Doctors are expecting more from us come the 3rd week. In addition, had to rush to complete partograms and case write ups. I need more Time Time Time...

Yesterday, had to rush to KL due to some AMSA stuff that went haywire. Was rushing like mad especially when the lecture timetables went topsy-turvy. I got a message saying that there was a spontaneous ward round while i was lazing in the library having fun with the newspapers. Can you imagine that? haha... that's O&G !

Well, have to continue with my case write up now. How would the coming week turn out to be , with hari raya holidays on the verge...hmmm... =D

yikping

945am

O&G

1st week into the Obstetrics and Gynaecology department, everything had been smooth sailing so far. Apart from my scarce knowledge in many aspects (afterall, i'm barely one week into it =D ) , the transitional period from my previous surgery dept was a success.

Into my 4th day, I had nothing to complain about, although i might condemn that time is so precious yet so mean. In fact, it had been more fruitful than the previous posting while looking forward to another tomorrow had been something i seldom did in surgery.

One interesting dialogue i engaged in with a specialist during a lecture :

Dr : What is precipitated labour ?

Me : Erm....erm...(nothing seems to be coming out although im certain plenty of information was swarming my mind ; I had to say something ! ) A labour process faster than the normal one.

Dr : That's a politician answer ( ?! )

Me : Huh ?

Dr : Its like saying , I'm stronger than the opposition party. Be more specific

Me : .... ( sitting on my chair =.= )


~~stay tuned for more stories XD

yikping
536pm

门

今天，
你没踏入，
为你打开的门...

奕斌
144pm

Short Case Surgery

So, we had our 1st examination of the clinical years today. And, believe me, I will always remember how it went about...

We gathered in the tutorial room at 830am and started the heated discussion. Basically we were to be tested on history taking, physical examination, instruments and chest X-ray (CXR). We totally ignored the CXR as we thought might just be tailored for internal medicine posting.

I waited nervously for my turn as we were called name by name to the wards where the examination was about to be carried out. My chance came around 10am. We expected CXR to be tested as we entered the ward since we took a glimpse of the settings. There were totally no discussions or seminars or whatever lectures on CXR throughout the posting. Obviously, i was just about to be screwed.

Mr A (examiner 1) placed a CXR on the screen... 'you 3rd year right....okayyyyyyyy. tell me what you see' . I stood there dumbfounded. Nothing seemed to be getting out from my mouth. Mouth agape, and staring blankly at the flim, I told myself, you might as well fail me. Lets proceed to the next station. Anyway, I struggled to find words....and here was how it went...

me : this is a CXR , the trachea is not deviated, it is centrally located. The costophrenic angle is diminished on the right side. There is a visible gastric bubble which is a normal finding....bla bla bla
{how Mr A interprets my answer : I do not know anything about the X-ray.I'm just guessing}

Mr A : you are telling me everything everywhere. Please get organised. Start from inside out or outside in. What view is this?

me : okok... this is a PA view of the X-ray. The trachea.....bla bla bla...there is no cardiomegaly since the apex does not cross the midaxillary line ...
{how Mr A interprets my answer : Please fail me , there is no point in wasting your time assessing me }

Mr A : what ?? who taught you this...

me : Errr....my own understanding... *傻笑*

Mr A : Are there any fracture ribs ? Is this normal ? Can you see the border of the heart? What is this (aortic knuckle) ? .....

me : (listening to every word painstakingly. I do not want to fail... T.T) No rib fractures. It is not normal to have a bubble in the thoracic cavity...bla bla bla

Gosh, I slogged through the remaining questions and answered as if I was held at knife point. Indeed, I was !!

2nd station was about instruments. I failed to convince him about the central venous catheter. Luckily, he picked up a urinary catheter and asked me about it. To my relief, he finally seemed more comfortable. I can only say i did well for the urinary catheter.

I was told to wait for the next section, in which i had to take a history. Mr B was my examiner. After some anxious moments, he brought me to the female ward. As we walked there, he told me this horrifying statement : 'Mr A garang ke? ' me : er....sikit. Immediately, the only thing that rushed through my mind was -- I'm doomed

History taking was not pleasant as well. My patient was nauseatic but i still had to take a direct history from her. Mr B was however, quite friendly which indeed eased much burden and anxiety off me ! I started off confidently but the presenting part was...er... pathetic perhaps.

- I did not record anything i asked
- I had < 10 seconds to organise my thoughts

He guided me at first by asking signs of appendicitis. My patient is 36/M/female, presented with L and RLQ pain for 1 week. Thanks to his guide , i guessed correctly the diagnosis of a ruptured appendix, much to my relief...phew...I think I did just enough to pass the history taking but the outcome might be better if I had time to organise my thoughts.

Anyway, the nightmare is over, at least for now before i proceed to O&G. Certainly something I'm not looking forward as a pleasant experience. Ok, time to rewind and chill before another storm hits me with full force =D

yikping
1241am

阴阴沉沉

阴沉沉的心情，
布满乌云。


明天的太阳，
会亮吗？

奕斌
1152pm

Fake but real dreams

The deafening silence demonstrated its superiority in this dark gloomy night.
The flashback started.
It was swift.
I was sucked into whirlpool of thoughts.
Abruptly awoken from my dreams,
there i stood lying on my bed.
It had to come,
one fine day.
Heavy eyelids enveloped my eyeball,
as i fell back again into my dreams...

yikping
1129pm

无法退后也无法向前走

房间空荡荡的。
唯，
孙燕姿的‘遇见’，
伴着孤寂的灵魂，
度过无风的下午。

闭塞的温度，
让我无法一口气吸到肺腑深处。
每一口气，
都是很执着的，
为生存而拼斗。

记忆犹新之际，
残忍的思绪，
就像突如其来的海啸，
像顿时的雷劈，
毫不留情地，
毁了不堪一击的童梦。

裹足不前的黑影，
是根刺。
愣，
接着晃，
站在原地的脚步无法移动。
时间过了，
遗留的，
是共同的回忆...

奕斌
1252pm

笼外的天空

何时，
才得以豁出去，
瞻仰蔚蓝的天空？
紧凑的生活节奏，
难免，
让我不知觉地，
窒息...

最近，
好忙好忙。

我要蓝天，
我要大树，
我要大自然。
蓦然回首，
才惊觉，
天色已昏暗...



p/s: 照片摄于taman tasik permaisuri

奕斌
853pm

MASUM 2

After 3 rounds , UKM and USM lead the standings with 8.5 points. Not bad performance from UKM today as we managed to score a total of 7 points from the 2 matches today. Congrats ! If we can get past tomorrow with good scores , 3rd placing will be a realistic target to aim for. Go go go UKM !! =)

I scored 2 wins today although i had to sweat out during the 1st game with only 2 minutes left before prevailing. Life continues to be wonderful here , although not as awesome as last year , it will still be one of the days to recap on in future...

yikping
900pm

MASUM 1

The inaugural MASUM chess competition is again just round the corner.It is an inter-Malaysia University competition where the best chess players pit their chess skills against various players representing their respective universities.We will be in University Putra Malaysia for 4 days ( Sun - Wed) as we hope to maintain the 3rd placing we achieved last year.

Just checked in at Kolej Burhanuddin Helmi around 130pm yesterday. Speaking about the college, it is not a very decent place to stay, but what to do , just have to make up for it. Firstly, there are lots of mosquitoes that accompanied me through my sleep yesterday night.Had to put on my jacket and blanket before they finally left me alone. Secondly, the condition of the bathroom is deplorable. The floor is dirty with muddy stains and always clogged with water.Showers that do not function and taps that run on muddy water just doesn't help with the condition.Thirdly , the college is situated so far from the entrance and gathering spot(luckily i have a friend who has a car that can ferry us to and fro....but...damn. last year, we just need to walk across the road)

Anyway, after all the numerous complains , i assure you that I'm fine here. Alive and still kicking ! haha... The 1st round of the competition starts today at 230pm. Wish me luck ! ^^

p/s : wanted to blog yesterday but due to internet connection error and time constrains , i can only blog now.hehe =P


yikping
1033am

东方之珠

空气弥漫着熟悉的味道，
渡过一段海，
槟城，
我回来啦！
突然间想回来的，
难免感觉怪怪的。
不过没有心理准备下回来，
也不错嘛。
但，
向我招手的，
是一片乌云雨景...

又是个凉快的晚上 =)

奕斌
1134pm

Klinik Asas

As the tail end of the 'klink asas' approaches, i realise that the fun might just end here. Into the 4th week in HUKM , life certainly had its ups and downs. What the future upholds is still a huge question mark. Hectic schedules and stressful conditions? Cheerful and informative? No one really knows...

Im starting to like the settings of clinical life. It's one strange dimension that is so uncertain and full of surprises. Come next week , I will be in Negeri 9 for a camp. We are required to join the camp as part of our preparation for the 3rd year.

At this point of life , I'm very grateful for the events that unfolded. May this sanguine feeling guide me through the clinical years =)

Cheers,
Yik Ping
1014am

When bad turns to worse

Due to limited internet access in Hosp. UKM(HUKM) , it's just so frustrating to be without internet connection in my room.

It has been almost 2 weeks since i entered HUKM for the clinical years, that is my 3rd years. We are currently having 4 weeks of basic clinical skills before entering the real postings. Supposedly relaxing and to be accustomed with the clinical life, i found myself always racing against time to get things right. The pressure is already mounting in the O&G wards. Nothing much is going to help as the doctors screw you right and tight. It's a total contrast to my mood of relaxing and hanging around before the real postings start. No fun dude !

Frankly, i had been playing rather lot XD But when meetings and ward rounds are concerned , i just can't reignite the passion and inner strength needed. Dragging my slagging body and lethargic mind around is just as terrible as being a slave of my life. When will things change?

Life was once a bed of roses . Now , it's a carpet of thorns. It's pricky and always catches me unaware. Once again , i sunk into the dungeons of uncertainty. I'm scared. I cried for help but there was no one except me , wading through the waters of unknown depth. Regrets are amassing in my mind as days pass by without any sense of being sorry.

I can't tell anything now.It's just so bleak , so worrying and so sophisticated. I need an answer soon . A good answer. But tell me , will i be able to accept the truth?

yikping
801am

TIME CAPSULE

Holidays are just about to end in a weeks time.The true side of me will again be locked into the time capsule , set to be released some day when holidays come waiving at me.Replacing it will be the guy who is always rushing for things , emo , stressed-up , selfish and unfriendly. There doesn't seem to be a cure for the me in academic weeks. Life is about work and work and work.Those that had a chance to see me in the holidays will see the true me, ever zestful and optimistic.

As the countdown begins , the surrounding air gets heated up with tension and emotions.I'm starting to feel uneasy again . Tasks that are always trying to gun me down. Drowning in medical stuff once again , I can't really wait to reopen the time capsule...

A emotionless and introvert me , awaits...

yikping
1058pm

夏

五月的温馨，
袭以我芬芳。
掠过的暖风，
唤醒了蜷缩在角落的灵魂。

谁会在露珠的酝酿中醒过来,
谁会在苍凉的梦乡中放烟花,
谁会在月夜的静谧中看星星.

我对你的思念，
是一场永不停止的爱情假期.

奕斌
1212am

意外的人生

分享一篇好文章 ^^

我早出晚歸。我是醫學院神經外科的副教授，我是許多同僚醫生中最受歡迎的腦外科醫生，所以我的病人特別多。

在美國時，一般的人很現實和精明，他們都會查問如果有護士或醫生需要腦神經外科醫生照顧的時候，他們會去找誰，他們把這樣一位醫生叫做〝Doctor's doctor〞。

我就是許多醫生的腦神經外科醫生。因此我的病人最多，一年365天要開360個病例，加上每天看門診、住院的病人，每年至少有5000人次，這樣可想而知我是多忙碌。

有時深夜歸家的途上，我會想到，我的兩位可愛的孩子不知道今天乖不乖？在學校有沒有問題？我的心裡有時很虧欠，找不出時間在週末時應他們的要求一起去打棒球、騎馬或釣魚。

我只能自我安慰的說，我已經替他們的活動空間買下四甲地的家園，他們可以找朋友來家裡玩、可以露營、可以游泳、可以爬樹摘花。比起我小時候的成長環境好多了。

而且我要替他們存錢，繳最好的私立學校昂貴的學費；我要為他們存銀行的帳戶，做大學及研究院的教育基金；我要為他們每一個人設立一個信託基金，好叫他們中年以後做事業時有個基金；我要為年邁退休的父親設一個基金，所以他不必每個月向孩子們要錢，我要........。

有一個星期天我們全家上禮拜堂，主日學後，因我內人有婦女會的聚會，我就帶兩個孩子去中國餐廳吃麵，然後送他們回家，我就馬上回醫院巡視病人。在開車的路上，我的胸口開始感覺悶熱不舒服，於是我把那部完全自動控制賓士的坐位調整，窗戶打開來通風，我想胸口痛或許會改善。但是到了醫院，停好車走進急診處入口為止並不感到改善。

我請在急診科的住院醫師替我做一個心電圖，結果是正常，剛好有一個心臟科專家走過，就請教他的意見，他看了我的心電圖，看了我的病例，也聽了我的心臟，就判定我要住院。

他的理由是：他及大家 (全醫院)、全社區，不能冒險失掉一位像我這樣好的神經外科醫生。我辯論說，我的祖父86歲，我的父親67歲都健在，沒有家族病歷是心肌梗塞的。他反駁說，他們不是神經外科醫生，沒有我所受到的壓力。

結果我住進了心臟加護病房三天三夜，他們為我做了一套完整且近乎10萬美元的檢查，檢查結果是認為說大概是中國麵湯中可能放太多味精，而使我的冠狀動脈產生痙攣的現象所引起的症狀，我沒有心肌梗塞或冠狀動脈硬化。

第四天早上，我從加護病房出院，就走到開刀房做手術。是責任感和榮譽感，既理性又感性地，我這樣做了。但是，從此我的人生觀有了一個很大的改變。因為在住院的期間我看了很多書，其中一則是俄國文豪托爾斯泰的短文...

故事這樣說：

有一位農夫，早出晚歸耕種一塊貧瘠的土地，他勤奮的工作，午餐也顧不得吃，太陽要下山的時候，就嘆息時間太短，也常常自言自語的說： have to save something for raining days。（我務必積蓄五穀，以備不時之需。）

有一位天使聽到了，覺得農夫很可憐，就靠近對他說：「你很認真，對父母有孝行，對子女有愛心，對鄰居和睦相助，所以上帝要賞賜你更多的土地，讓你富足。今天，從這做起點，你能力所及的去跑，等你繞一圈子回到原點時，我會將圈圈以內的土地贈送給你，讓你飽足。」

這個農夫真是高興極了，馬上就開始跑，也忘了帶飲水，只顧往前跑。當他跑了半個鐘頭後，往後看，啊！真高興，他想：我這輩子夠用了，這塊地所產的五穀能供我一輩子。他想停下來了，但是又想到這是千載難逢的機會，我應該為我的兒女再跑一段路，讓他們也有一點的家產才是，於是又跑了一個鐘頭，他又渴又累、汗流浹背。

他往後看，離起點的地方已經很遠了，也許應該折回。可是他又想起了他的兄弟姐妹，他再往前跑了一段。

他的胸口開始有一點悶熱，頭有一點暈。他開始想：唉！我畢竟年紀大了，身體狀況大不如從前，我退休了以後怎麼辦呢？也許我應該再多跑一點路。

可是就在這個時候，他體力不支倒地，不久就死了，連回到原點的機會也沒有。當然，什麼土地都沒有得到。

故事的精神是說：當人太貪心時，最終會變成什麼也得不到。從此以後，我修正了我的人生觀，我開始回轉，不應該像那農夫一樣貪婪不知足。

我每一年拿一個月的休假做義工，做短期的醫療宣教師，到醫療落後的國家服務或教學，也打算從55歲到65歲獻給主用。這期間使我有機會遇到了很多朋友和信仰的前輩，也學習到服侍人的樂趣。


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我 们 不 是 恋 人 、 但 你 对 我 很 重 要 、 很 重 要…

我喜欢你，却不会在一起 。

你知道么，我喜欢你笑的样子。

你知道么，我常常很想你。

你知道么，我清楚你的习惯。

你知道么，我记得你跟我说的话。

你知道么，我明白你的一个眼神一句言外之意。

你知道么，我喜欢你认真的表情。

你知道么，在我心里你很棒。

你知道么，你是我的榜样。

你知道么，我保存了好多，关于你。

你知道么，我把你看得很重要。

你知道么，你说过的歌曲我都下载。

你知道么，那首歌，成了我的单曲循环。

你知道么，你讲的笑话 我背的比英语都牢。

你知道么，你不知道，好多 ……

即使很忙，依然想陪你。

逛在街上，突然想起，这个你喜欢吃

我总会突然想，打个电话，想听听，那熟悉的声音了。

我们不是恋爱的关系，却明白，这比友谊特别。

其实我们都明白，你，在我心里很重要。

但是，这样的人一旦分开，

就连朋友 ，

都不是、这就是人生。

雨夜

凌晨一时半的雨滴，

毫不留情地，

在屋顶铿锵作响。

摄氏二十度的夜空，

弥漫着一阵阵的，

惆怅，心酸。

电话另一端，

没有出现那把熟悉的声音。

万般情怀，

是涨潮的海边，

奔向海堤，

溅出无数的水花。

凉飕飕的夜风，

呼唤无数的悲恸。

一首歌，

一剑一剑；

一颗心，

一痕一痕。

雨夜，

心坎，

冰冰的，

冷冷的。

奕斌

156am

心中的廟

心情不佳時 看看這篇文章 或許能幫助你脫離痛苦的深淵

有一個皇帝想要整修在京城裡的一座寺廟，他派人去找技藝高超的設計師，希望能夠將寺廟整修成美麗而又莊嚴。

後來有兩組人員被找來了，其中一組是京城裡很有名的工匠與畫師，另外一組是幾個和尚。

由於皇帝沒有辦法決定到底哪一組人員的的手藝比較好，於是他就決定要給他們機會作一個比較。

皇帝要求這兩組人員，各自去整修一個小寺廟，而這兩個寺廟互相面對面； 三天之後，皇帝要來驗收成果。

工匠們向皇帝要了一百多種顏色的顏料（漆），又要求了很多的工具； 而讓皇帝很奇怪的是，和尚們居然只要了一些抹布與水桶等等簡單的清潔用具。

三天之後，皇帝來驗收兩組人員裝修寺廟的結果，他首先看看工匠們所裝飾的寺廟，工匠們敲鑼打鼓地慶祝著工程的完成，他們用了非常多的顏料，以非常精巧的手藝把寺廟裝飾得五顏六色。

皇 帝很滿意地點點頭，接著回過頭來看看和尚們負責整修的寺廟，他一看之下就愣住了，和尚們所整修的寺廟沒有塗上任何的顏料，他們只是把所有的牆壁、桌椅、窗 戶等等都擦拭的非常乾淨，寺廟中所有的物品都顯出了它們原來的顏色，而它們光澤的表面就像鏡子一般，無瑕地反射出從外面而來的色彩，那天邊多變的雲彩、隨 風搖曳的樹影，甚至是對面五顏六色的寺廟，都變成了這個寺廟美麗色彩的一部份，而這座寺廟只是寧靜地接受這一切。

皇帝被這莊嚴的寺廟深深地感動了，當然我們也知道最後的勝負。

我們的心就像是一座寺廟， 我們不需要用各種精巧的裝飾來美化我們的心靈，我們需要的只是讓內在原有的美，無瑕地顯現出來。

有些事，現在的你如果想不通，就別想了吧！

有些人，現在的你如果無法面對，就別面對了吧！

有些困擾，現在的你如果不能處理，就別處理了吧！

有些情緒，現在的你如果不知如何分析，就別分析了吧！

不想不理不是逃避，而是暫時讓自己從煩惱裡抽離。

若再繼續糾纏下去，恐怕只是讓自己更深陷於一團亂局！

再說，現在的你沒有辦法處理，不代表以後的你也如此無能為力，

所以，你乾脆把那些事那些人那些困擾和情緒暫時

打包裝箱，等到你有能力去解決的時候再從容優雅地處理，

相信時間的手會把你撫慰得更柔軟、更有智慧！

from :
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下雨天

凝视窗外,
屋檐下的细雨连绵,
扩展成没有边界的眷恋.
阵阵凉风掠过.
冷意突如其来的侵袭,
心寒,
莫名伤感.
我不愿惊动织梦的心灵,
让我把思念你的秘密收藏...

emo者
135pm

守候·离别

曾经，
我那么不了解你，
竟会那么喜欢你；
现在，
你那么了解我，
但，
如今旧时的熟悉,
却变得如此陌生。

偶然的相遇，
无意的邂逅，
时间，
仿佛停留在那一秒。
封锁已久的感觉，
猛然间心底猛然，
赤热地燃烧着生命。
当我再次清醒的时候，
原来只不过是场梦。

我的约定，
你的承诺，
就像突然来袭的海啸，
像昨夜死去的金鱼，
像不堪一击的蜘蛛网。
它，
是过去幼稚的梦想，
是现在回味无穷的笑话，
是未来肯定的泡影

我，
被坚硬的街道拒绝，
在城市的边缘。
午夜里照亮的路灯，
无法指引走强前方的我。
陷阱密布的道路里，
我，被一次次擦伤。

奕斌
1139pm