When bad turns to worse

Due to limited internet access in Hosp. UKM(HUKM) , it's just so frustrating to be without internet connection in my room.

It has been almost 2 weeks since i entered HUKM for the clinical years, that is my 3rd years. We are currently having 4 weeks of basic clinical skills before entering the real postings. Supposedly relaxing and to be accustomed with the clinical life, i found myself always racing against time to get things right. The pressure is already mounting in the O&G wards. Nothing much is going to help as the doctors screw you right and tight. It's a total contrast to my mood of relaxing and hanging around before the real postings start. No fun dude !

Frankly, i had been playing rather lot XD But when meetings and ward rounds are concerned , i just can't reignite the passion and inner strength needed. Dragging my slagging body and lethargic mind around is just as terrible as being a slave of my life. When will things change?

Life was once a bed of roses . Now , it's a carpet of thorns. It's pricky and always catches me unaware. Once again , i sunk into the dungeons of uncertainty. I'm scared. I cried for help but there was no one except me , wading through the waters of unknown depth. Regrets are amassing in my mind as days pass by without any sense of being sorry.

I can't tell anything now.It's just so bleak , so worrying and so sophisticated. I need an answer soon . A good answer. But tell me , will i be able to accept the truth?

yikping
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