Kenangan Terindah

Aku yang lemah tanpamu

Aku yang rentan karena

Cinta yang tlah hilang darimu

Yang mampu menyanjungku

Selama mata terbuka

Sampai jantung tak berdetak

Selama itupun aku mampu untuk mengenangmu

Darimu kutemukan hidupku

Bagiku kaulah cinta sejati..

Wooo

( Begitu engkaulah; cinta sejati )

Bila yang tertulis untukku

Adalah yang terbaik untukmu

Kan kujadikan kau kenangan

Yang terindah dalam hidupku

Namun takkan mudah bagiku

Meninggalkan jejak hidupmu

Yang tlah terukir abadi

Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

Bila yang tertulis untukku

Adalah yang terbaik untukmu

Kan kujadikan kau kenangan

Yang terindah dalam hidupku

Namun takkan mudah bagiku

Meninggalkan jejak hidupmu

Yang tlah terukir abadi

Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

I. MISS. YOU ='(

Bye bye children =(

It has to come to an end but I never knew I would miss the kids so much. The sick children in the pediatrics posting. 8 weeks of life dealing with children passed with a blink of an eye and I'm preparing to venture into the field of orthopedics come tomorrow. And that will take me another 8 weeks.


The short case clinical examination that ended last friday (7 dec) marks the end of the posting. Nothing much to speak about the exam as I was so very lucky to get two examiners who were so angelistic. Hopefully I would at least score a pass for my efforts.

My daughter...wuahahaa....cute isn't it? with her tongue sticking out =)

Cute is one reason for my to miss the kids but the most important thing is about the rapport with the kids. Many a time, we have to be exam oriented when examining the kids. And I believe no one out there likes that approach. I will usually approach the kids in 'exam oriented' mode and finish my stuff, before switching to 'patient oriented' mode where I continue to play with the kids and make them happy. It doesn't really serve me any benefit to stay back longer just to see them being happy but it makes me feel more passionate with the kids to see that they can be playing like other healthy children.


The nicest part of the session with the kids is assessing their developmental milestones. In short, each normal kid has their own potential to perform certain activities when they reach a certain age. A 6 month old baby will like to grab things offered and put them into his mouth without second thought while 9 month old baby will be able to sit without support. When u see a child walking quite steadily without being held, you can ascertain that he must be at least 15-18 months. In order to assess that, we have to buy toys for them in order to grab their attention. Besides the routine developmental assessment set we had, here are some extra toys that I bought on my own =)

My favourite toy of all time ! And everyone's favourite as well. They sound when you press on them !

I also had this little cute yellow duck sharpener 

Bear bear which was actually from a key chain

A character from the story 'Cars". It can roll on its wheels =)

I used to say I would perform badly in pediatrics because i used to have no affection towards the kids and will not be able to blend in with them well. The same things goes to the pregnant ladies in the Obstetrics and Gynaecology posting. In the end, they turned out to the 2 postings I loved the most, above medicine, surgery and psychiatry.


What would ortopedics turn out to be? Something special memory that I would cherish when i graduate, or just another posting that I would have to pass as a routine rotation in medical school. But hopefully, someday, I would be able to get in touch with all those sick but cute children!


yikping
1140am

昨晚想起你，今天你找上我。好百感交集...

我喜歡的那個人，能不能問你4個問題：

1有沒有一瞬間，你上線是為了找我，
讓我陪你聊天？

2有沒有那麼一種感動，
當你看到手機上有我發的短信時，
嘴角會有一絲滿意的微笑？

3如果有一天我不再和你聯繫，
你會主動聯繫我嗎？

4如果有一天，
我徹底的在你的世界裡消失，
你會不會想起有我？

Blood Donation

Finally donated blood again after a lapse of 7 months. Kinda busy to get to Pusat Darah Negara(PDN) and not too convenient either just to go there and donate blood~

It was my 8th time donating blood in my lifetime, including the one today. I used to donate blood with the mindset of self health benefits and for the needy, besides being happy to see the number of times I donate blood increase. However, I had my mindset changed when I donated blood in PDN today.

Perhaps I could attribute it to the fact that I'm currently in the pediatric posting in HKL. Throughout the 3 weeks there, I saw some Thalassemic patients who underwent blood transfusion just because their hemoglobin isn't normal enough to function for around 120 days. Instead, they lyse prematurely in the blood vessels causing a condition called anemia. With anemia, they are easily tired, lack adequate oxygen to function best and may have stunted growth. Those kids repeatedly need monthly transfusions to have a normal life like what other kids undergo. Whilst waiting for the blood to get from my circulation into the bags, some faces of thalassemic kids surfaced in my mind. Thinking of them made me feel very obliged to donate my blood so that they can mature and grow up as someone successful one day.

It would be another 3 more months before I am able to undergo another blood donation. And I would donate as long as I'm fit for it. May the blood give energy and strength to all those kids receiving it!

Yik Ping
222pm

左边

歌曲：左边
歌手：杨丞琳 专辑：遇上爱 

总是忍不住寂寞掉下眼泪
你才会给安慰
担心短暂的晴天随时都可能
被阴狸收回
等待有机会最坏也最甜美
我乐观却疲惫
因为太怕失去你
所以连快乐里都装满伤悲
你不曾发觉
你总是用右手牵着我
但是心却跳动在左边
你和我之间的遥远
永远隔着亲切爱少的可怜
伸出右手想陪着你向前走
感受你爱我的心跳在左边
那么深深爱你的我
想信你会了解
杨丞琳-左边
总在埋怨过你的冷漠之后
又急着说抱歉
彷佛向疏远的你乞求一点体贴
都是我不对
结果有可能最美也最可悲
我做好了准备
也许太自由的你心里面
那个家谁也不能回
你不曾发觉你总是用右手牵着我
感受你爱我的心跳在左边
你和我之间的遥远
我一直相信总有一天
你会用左手牵着我走向明天
未来很遥远却会实现
心在同一边就能够听见
你说的那句我爱你
你一定看得见

Easy No Tension

They said, ENT = easy no tension. Partly true, but I'd say it's interesting but tough. Actually ENT stands for ear nose throat, or otorhinolaryngology (ORL). 5 days in ENT seems  to be like 5 weeks, with so many happenings and fun.

Perhaps coz it was the first week, lectures come striking us like falling rain. Had 12 lectures in 4 days, that is 3 lectures per day. On top of that, had to join clinic sessions, operation theater procedures and being on-call. It is very exciting but tiring.  We were exposed to this field of surgery for the 1st time in medical school but i'm starting to like it. I was lucky to witness a rare operation conducted by Prof Dato Lokman on stapedotomy yesterday and a cochlear implant by my Prof. Dato is one of the few (3 perhaps?) surgeons in Malaysia that offer this operation. But the unlucky part was we had to leave the OT when the implanted cochlear device was just about to be inserted into the cochlear. From the patients in the ENT ward, to the paeds ENT ward, there are just so many cases to learn about.

The best session of the week was perhaps the clinical examination we just had this evening. Thanks to the doctor for teaching us the examination of the ear, nose and throat. We even got a chance to see the nasal cavity and the throat through the fibre optic scope. Thanks to my friend Haziq who had to endure the pain =)

Psychiatric posting left me many sweet memories but also many morals of the day and ENT posting has given me a broader perspective of how doctors work. Can't wait for week 2 to start, yeay ! But my theory...plenty to work on this weekend >''<

yikping
919pm

妈妈想你了...
可是，
你不在了。

Mid Semester Break

Back to where i belong--Penang, after a gruelling 8 week start for my forth year. And yep, that's a quarter of it gone.

I was just done with my posting in the psychiatric department. For which was supposed to be the easiest and most relaxed posting through out the clinical years, I had to struggle with a brand new environment which lead to many episodes of break down. Recapping on what had happened for the past 8 weeks, I was just glad it's now over.

Perhaps I was still in holiday mood(1st posting of the 4th year, after the 3rd year break) , I hardly took things seriously until there was a dire need to reproduce something expected. I did not have as many teaching sessions with my supervisor as the other groups experienced, but that was not something I could lament on. Indeed, I lacked the own initiative to gain valuable learning experiences from the wards and the clinics, which would explain how I regretted when I left this posting. I do admit I need a push to get forward, and that was how it went when I was not pushed.

The more common cases in Psychiatry include Schizophrenia, Major Depression, Bipolar Mood Disorders, Anxiety disorders, and Substance Abuses. I used to think that patient who are diagnosed with a kind of psychiatric disorder are dangerous. Perhaps this was just my prejudiced opinion. After clerking some patients, especially schizophrenia patients who are stable, I can figure out what they were thinking during their relapsed state. Take an example of this patient, who was singling and labeling everyone out there as some royal person from the past. She was also smiling to anyone she saw, and to the extent of bowing to them. She later clarified that she had a delusion that everyone was from the royal family and the bowing was just a show of respect. I also noticed many patients with depression, who merely wanted someone to listen to them, and be with them. I had an experience of being with a patient for 2.5 hours just to listen to her complaining about her marriage and her life. Pitiful, yet helpless.


Overall, I think the best moment of the whole posting was on the day we had our exam. Observed long case examination. We were supposed to take a direct history of presenting illness and present the case to our observing supervisor. Then, we were to describe the mental state and discuss the appropriate investigations and managements. 5 of us were given a chance to clerk the patient and assessed on the spot. Although it lasted for around 4 hours, I really learnt a lot from the session (although it was an exam). The moment i exited the exam room ( interview room) was perhaps the best and the worst of the posting. The best that I had passed this posting and going to proceed to the holidays but the sad thing was going to part away with psychiatry for some time.

I will miss psychiatry, and the patients. Otorhinolaryngology  or more known as ENT (ear nose throat) will be up next. For the time being, lets lay back with the 1 week semester break =D


yikping
300pm

Panic Attack !

     It still sends a chill down my spine when I recall the 'panic' incident I witnessed in the ward just before I had lunch.

     I was strolling towards the canteen when the alarm bell lighted up. The high pitched siren was screaming across the doorway. Seemed that there was a situation in the male ward as the yellow colour light was blipping. I turned my back and headed towards the ward with intrigue. As I headed towards the ward, a staff nurse was asking me about the whereabouts of the security guard while the other said that one patient tried to escape. Cool isn't it?

     Standing on the counter was the patient who was requesting to talk to the doctor. According to him, he wanted to go out and meet with the consultant in charge of him. Although I was not really clear about the situation out there, it seemed to me that the patient was disappointed by the decision made by the staff nurse. The gate into the ward was locked too.

     The situation was tense as the alarm sounded but no security personnel were present. As the patient started to demand for the doctor and becoming aggressive, some nurses had to prepare with Haloperidol and Midazolam just in case there is a need of it. The nurse(male) was making a deal with the patient that if he receives his injection, everything will be fine and no one gets hurt.

     Since the patient did not wish to cooperate, the middle cubicle(where he is located) was immediately emptied. Patients and medical students were required to step out while security personnel who had just arrived moved in. The tussle was a 'mild' one as the patient was quickly pushed towards the ground. And it required 6 men to get him lie still. Interestingly, another patient (Mr H), who just had his injection this morning for losing control, was there to stabilize him too. How cute =)

     It's rather terrifying to witness one and i doubt if I would be interested to witness another event as such. On the other hand, I felt sad that the patient was sedated and had all four limbs tied to the bed. Is there any other method to calm the patient down? Hmm....Ohya, and the best part of it? Mr H was seen consoling the patient throughout the struggle and telling him that everything is fine, just like a friend in need. At least, that is heartwarming!


YikPing
147pm

Psychiatry

      Yesterday marks the 2nd week of my posting in the psychiatry department, PPUKM. This is my first posting of my 4th year.

       Yet, until today, psychiatry seems to be so abstract to me. Moving on to the 8th day tomorrow, I have still yet to tune myself into the minds of psychiatrists. Everything just seems to be so vague. Frankly, I have been trying to like and enjoy this posting but things did not turn out to be better. However, on a positive note, at least I have a direction and heading towards the goal set.

     Clerking in psychiatry has been the most interesting part as far as I'm concerned. Unlike Internal Medicine or Surgery, the method of clerkship is quite different. I have clerked a few cases till date and most of them had been major depression or with suicidal attempts. Initially, I felt scared to even approach a psychiatry patient for the fear of the unstable mood they possess. To me, they appear to be violent, creepy and unfriendly.


     I managed to clerk an interesting patient today. She was diagnosed with schizophrenia since 2006 and has been on medication since then. It still deters me to clerk a schizophrenic patient although I have been trained to clerk one. It turned out to be quite a new experience when I clerked her, with my 2 other friends accompanying me. I could not really get the history as she always wanted to go to the toilet. The reason? She has 4 bottles of mineral water bottles (1.5L) on her table and kept drinking them. She said that she must drink lots of water to keep her facial texture smooth and nice. On top of that, she kept saying that I must eat more as I appear so thin her. It happened thrice throughout the interview.


     Will be attending a clinic session tomorrow with my supervisor. Finally ! I have longed to meet her since the first day. Hopefully she will be able to enlighten me and make me enjoy the 8 weeks in this posting =)



yikping
1003pm

Press Not-So-Freedom Day?

             3rd of May marks the world press freedom day. Back in 1991, the United Nations general assembly declared this day as World Press Freedom day to increase awareness of the importance to freedom of press and also as a reminder to all governments regarding the freedom of expression. It is one's right to voice out something that is real and report if without biases. However, as far as I'm concerned, Malaysians do little to practice this freedom issue. 3rd of May might just be the day of world press freedom but the main idea is to create awareness for people to exercise their rights about facts, unlike baseless political scandals in Malaysia done to tarnish the image of another guy.

             Rewind a few days back where i found this very interesting video posted on YouTube. It has been 21 years since the world press freedom day was declared but, as I said before, Malaysia is just simply out of bounds. And now we are in the hot water as BBC issued a warning and even took a swipe at us of for censoring what they had recorded. The media is controlled by the government and sensitive issues were not to be disclosed to the public. This were among the few methods that kept the opposition at bay for the past 50 years as the media only portrayed the flawless side of our government.

                            
        It's not difficult to spot what was lacking when played on our local media


             Dr Chua Soi Lek voiced his concern about press freedom in today's The Star, urging the media to report news as it happens. On the other hand, Minister of Home Affairs Datuk Seri Hishamuddin also called for a special committee to investigate into the riot that caused injuries to the general public and to the cops as well. However, I always doubted their actions. 'Words always speak louder than actions' is something the Malaysian government are pretty fond of. Well, we will see about it.

             Turning our focus on the just concluded Bersih rally a week ago, it is not difficult to notice that our government yet again employed dirty tactics to divert the attention of the nation. With reference to the anti-Lynas gathering in Penang a couple of months ago, there is always one similarity during rallies: They start off peacefully, and then in a sudden, the crowd starts to go wild. Riots and crowd disorder immediately scream over the headlines of our dailies. The government is 'clever' to notice that if the rallies ended in peace, the message would be clear: To protest against some movement. However, with crowd violence in the frame now, papers are reporting about crowd violence, injuries here and there, and some big names calling for a committee to investigate into it. Seems that the committee that investigated about the anti-Lynas movement in Penang has just gone behind the scenes again. And did the papers report any genuine ideas regarding the Bersih rally for a change? You should know the answer.


            On the other end, we can see Myanmar evergreen leader Aung Sun Syu Kii swearing into the parliament yesterday. Now, that is what I call democracy and liberality. The junta ( or so called military government) is willing to abide the citizen's call for a change in the country. Although the nation might be a little disappointed as Aung Sun Syu  Kii was deprived the chance to take office, she still views it as a pride to stand in the parliament. 'Politics is not give and take. It's about yielding the wishes of the people', she siad cheerfully when questioned by reporters on her sudden U-turn from what she said on Monday.(She refused to swear in due to some issues regarding her party and parliamentary members in which the government would not tolerate)  Malaysia is much more developed and has a higher education status than Myanmar but in terms of politics and sociology, we are nothing compared to them. I bet the Bersih rally and anti-Lynas movements just fell on deaf ears. But no matter what the government thinks about those activities, at least it has achieved its target of instilling awareness to the nation of the need of a change.


Signing off
Yik Ping
130pm

Cute Malaysia

          Just had a bowl of hot noodles while it continues to rain outside. As the warmth of the noodles occupy my stomach, i lay lazily in front of my computer, hopefully just to give my mind a rest. However, i can't help but recall the contents of our local dailies for the past few days.


         It's rather pathetic when i go through the newspapers everyday and get to know the cute side of Malaysia. At times, it just turns me off to grab hold of the paper and start browsing through it. Hogging the headlines aren't the stories of great achievement of our country or some important world news. Rather, seeing politicians running down each other and displaying the immature side of themselves. Though I may still support the opposition to continue to keep the government in check, I never liked any of the sides. Penang DAP an exception because of the work and effort they put it. That's another issue anyway.

         Back to the hotly debated issue of abolishing the PTPTN loans. Well, frankly speaking, there isn't a need to do so, Mr Anwar. Afterall, it isn't causing Malaysia any problems financially. On a positive note, PTPTN was established to help those who cannot afford to pay the tuition fees imposed by the university as well as the high living costs when it concerns places like Kuala Lumpur. Indeed, the Minister of Higher Education is right to point out that by abolishing the PTPTN loans, many would be deprived the chances of pursuing higher education, given the current socioeconomic gap between the city and the rural areas. I could not agree more than our opposition leader is none other than fishing for votes.

          Today's front page of The Star speaks about the allegations of a model towards our minister. Of course, that's nothing beneficial other than yet another topic to gossip. What caught my attention was the statement made by Senator Datuk S. Nalla­karuppan against Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim, regarding a defamation suit. And there follows numerous politically geared articles as our nationwide General Election looms around the corner. In all, the first few pages supposedly to be national news turns out to be distorted and biased views of the political scene nowadays.

         I can still recall some articles in those days when I was young and was forced to read the newspapers. It was less politically centred and focused more on reporting news, rather than creating news as how it seems to be these days. The mass media is supposed to educate the public, especially the young ones on how our country is being developed and led by charismatic leaders (Mr Lim Guan Eng is one, but since he is in the opposition....), and at the same time, not being biased towards any quarter. Undoubtedly, the media is controlled by the government, but as a wise and transparent government should be, news should be reported just as they are without manipulating the facts. Malaysia has lots of catching up to do when governance is the issue. Malaysia education standard on par with developed countries? Either the minister is an epic fail, or the system is an epic fail. Think twice before you crack not-so-funny jokes, my beloved Education Minister.

        Well, this is Malaysia and the future is always as bleak as usual. Nothing much has changed since we achieved independence some 50 years ago. Vision 2020 is on the brink.  While being sick of the media and our politicians, I can just wish Malaysia the best of luck. After all, 'first world facilities, third class mentalities' sums it all.


*Just the author's personal opinions and trying not to offend any party in the process *


Signing off,
yikping
827pm

输给自己

看不开，
放不下，
一直错杀，
那‘虚假’的家伙。
明明，
是人家谦虚，
诚恳，
乐于助人。
以小人之心为君子之腹，
就是我。
但系，
吾真系接受不到咯~

奕斌
456pm

连续剧

开首的一篇是某某出生　妈妈给宝宝奉上这一生头一吻
开端之后或晴或暗　怎么走就像连续剧也欠缺安稳

或者　于某集我可抬头欣赏到你
或者　一转念便要失去你
或者　转折渐太多　遗忘怎拥抱你
或者　拥紧偏已断气

情人们一呼一吸相爱到底　结局或同样
仍想将你我这幕　演得更理想
能修补即管修补　不要再想　再一刻人便缺氧
熟悉的歌曲　等与你合唱
无人需要落寞的过场　前来铺满浪漫的过场

新一章怎可是你我分开　可否改写得像你我当初还相爱
只可惜上集难逆转　伤感的下集仍然未播　我会修改


如果　当晚没有分神来紧张布置
如果　不必误会再猜疑
如果　将对白说得平和　不加讽刺
如果　真的可有下次

情人们一呼一吸相爱到底　结局或同样
仍然能拖紧彼此　走绝地雪霜
如能重修好一双　不要再想　再一刻人便缺氧
明知可一起　不要再独唱

情人们一呼一吸相爱到底　结局或同样
仍想将你我这幕　演得更理想
如能重修好一双　不要再想 再一刻谁亦要退下场
多得你在场 多得我在场 天空也在场 演好这一章 呼吸太无常

Taman Tasik Permaisuri

Decided to get some exercise today, which was hardly rare lately. Anyway, they have planted lotus plants on the lake =) perhaps it had been there long ago, indicating that i had a long layoff since the last run.



Saw many kids that immediately stimulated the joyous receptors inside me. I smiled as i watched them play badminton, run everywhere, kick the ball around and do lots of funny stuff. Wondered how i was when i was young :)


At times, i also tend to ponder on what these kids will be in the future. Will they be someone great? A doctor, engineer, teacher or some successful businessman? It has been inevitable for me to keep thinking of their future whenever i meet with kids...haha.

And that caps a wonderful evening and an end of my weekends. Time to work again... *sulk*...haha...


yikping
717pm

巴西布兰邦

放空的思绪，
倒流入那宁静的河口弯处。
大手携着小手，
沉浸在悠闲的巴西不兰邦晚霞。

河风摇着船舷，
相碰之处，
吱吱地发出声音。
迎面咸咸的海风，
使得眼睛眯眯睁不开。

遥远处，
传来小朋友嬉戏的嘻哈声，
为这渔村增添了，
活泼的气息。

微弱的太阳，
收起它的光芒，
月亮逐渐的主宰浩然的夜空。

商店打烊了，
万家灯火时，
袅袅炊烟渐起，
为忙碌的一天画上句点。

打断的思绪，
又回到了寂静的房间里。


奕斌
940pm

期望

也许期望会带来痛苦，但正因为有期望，就算有多痛苦我们都可以熬得过。所以，即使多害怕失望，多害怕痛，也不能失去期望。


剧作家莎士比亚曾经写过，期望是唯一能医治痛苦的药物。我更加觉得当你悲伤的时候，期望就像一首能够安抚伤痛的音乐。能够达成期望当然是快乐的事，但有时候我们的期望会违背了其他人的愿望，难免要做出取舍。放弃哪一个期望都要付出代价，但是除了你自己，没有人会告诉你应该怎样抉择。有些期望可能不关你的事，你更不懂为何有些人愿意牺牲性命，也要追求一些不会有结果的期望。但若用心感受，你便会学会，每个期望或轻或重都是值得尊重的。可是无论期望带给你安慰，快乐，还是伤心，能够期望和被期望都是幸福的事。因为，我们依然生存着。就算有多少个期望落空，我们都可以有新的期望，直到生命的最后一刻。

[oncall 36小时]

奕斌
550pm

Hematinics

They taste so yucky. You know, the taste of metal XD It's so bitter and dry. Wondering how pregnant ladies take them for the whole length of their pregnancy....hmmm....


p/s : A hematinic is a medicine that increases the hemoglobin content of the blood


yikping
1140pm

And the summer breeze plays on my face,
memories soaring high up the skies,
m missing you deeply in my heart again.

How'd i wish I could ride along with the wind,
into the marry land of your dreams~


yikping
422pm

雨的气息，
弥漫于我俩之间的距离。
在河边踱步，
沉浸在二十五度的傍晚。


风儿调皮的，
在我们之间穿梭。
握着你的手，
踩着绿茵茵的，
青青河边草。


你踮起了脚尖，
轻轻吻上我的嘴唇，
惹来了，
鱼儿的羡慕。



奕斌
749pm

爱上狼男友

深夜拭的泪，
在枕头上留下的印记，
久久不散去。
觉得自己好渺小，
好脆弱。
他，离我而去，
到了好远好远的地方，
音讯全无...
他送我的公仔，
是我每天唯一的伙伴。
带走的，
是回忆；
留下的，
是空虚...

久久不磨灭的痛楚，
仍盘旋在脑海里。

奕斌
1049am

对不起，我却没捉紧你

很靠近还听见呼吸 　　
对不起，我却没捉紧你

奕斌
156pm

The sky greeted this lovely night with a late evening shower. I shuffled back to my room where i hope to seek the shelter i was looking for. It just poured and the leaves are still rumbling in the distance. The road was dark except for a few kindful street lamps who were generous enough to shine upon the roads.

My thoughts were awry. The day supposed to be called a memorable one somehow turned out to be a not so fun one. Dragging my dead soul with the lethargic body back to my room simply doesn't help set things right. And yes, the wind was cold but my heart was colder within.

It took my a lengthy five minutes to get back into my room. Along the way, even the cats were purring sinisterly. Damn it stupid cat. As if i hadn't had enough. My mood was horrible but i managed to salvage some cosiness as i unlocked my room door. There stood 豚豚, as loyal and adorable as usual. At least, it is something that i can seek solace in.

Sleepiness sunk in as i laid on the bed, hoping that tomorrow will be a good day for me, and for the start of the week. May the dreams carry away all the sorrow i endured throughout these few days and bring joy and happiness instead. Good night !


yikping
1243am

期盼

调皮的，
连跑带跳，
倚在窗边，
等待你的归来。

试图把颈项延伸到窗外去，
期盼遥远的路口，
有你的身影出现。
提着红色的小篮子，
装满水果。
溢出的菜叶，
会不会向我招招手，
和我无尽的思绪打招呼。

天色暗了，
唯有无几的繁星，
伴着黑夜的降临，
再次和心里的小精灵，
一起数绵羊...

奕斌
800pm

林書豪教我們的九堂課

過去的一週以來，除了那個計程車事件之外，唯一可以占據新聞媒體的焦點的，就是 NBA台裔 選手林書豪的表現，下面這是他在去年接受台灣 Good TV的訪問，可以看得出來，這一條籃球之路走來，一點都不輕鬆。

照例，在他上週的優異表現之後，美國以及台灣媒體大幅的報導，各處都可以看到相關的新聞， Forbe 上有一篇不錯的文章「9 Lessons Jeremy Lin Can Teach Us Before We Go To Work Monday Morning」，我覺得這不管是對創業者或者是工作者都是一帖不錯的心靈雞湯，茲翻譯如下：）

要在沒人看好時相信自己

林書豪是 NBA 歷史上第三位從哈佛畢業的球員，同時也是唯一的哈佛亞裔球員，之前是被尼克隊送到發展聯盟打球，而在加入尼克隊前，已經被金州勇士隊以及休士頓火箭隊給先後交易出來。

這條NBA之路異常難走（連 SBL 球員都可以對他嗤之以鼻），一切只能夠自己面對，相信自己；大部份的成功都是無法預見的，不管是球評專家、電視台、運動員等，創業也是，雖然失敗者多，但是總是有那麼一個亮點可以持續下去。

當機會來臨時奮力抓住

當尼克隊上重點球員傷兵累累，沒有控球後衛，讓林書豪得以有上場發揮的機會，他盡了全力，表現到最佳。

這情勢似乎聽起來就像是「蜀中無大將，廖化作先鋒」，但如果真成了廖化，又是否真的能有真本事扛得住呢？這還是得有賴實力的累積以待情勢的改變，但要確定，這個實力是對的方向，對的用途。

你的家人永遠是支持你的

請同樣予以回報，直到紐約尼克隊正式簽下他之前，他仍睡在紐約哥哥家裡的沙發上，家人在這一路上的相信與支持，無疑是他可以持續走下來的關鍵。這是互相的，當你需要他們時，他們在身旁，而當他們需要你時，你也得同樣站在一起。

家人與朋友的鼓勵一直都是支持我們做某些事的最大動力，同時間也別忘了為自己的家人與朋友提供一樣的支持：）

尋找適合你風格的系統

林 書豪不像是喬登或者是布萊恩一樣是得分高手，他是傳球者與貢獻者，但也同時能夠得分，這在之前的金州勇士隊或者是休士頓火箭隊行不通，但在紐約尼克隊奏效 了。你必須知道你在做些什麼以及強項為何，以確保你在正確的系統（工作、組織或者產業）裡以展現長才，否則人們只會把你的天份棄之如敝屣。

我猜 System 這個字應該最近有看球的人（包含我這位一週球迷，我上一次認真看NBA的時候應該是10年前了…滿場我現在只認識Kobe了…），都會知道這是中間廣告裡，Kobe 與 王力宏的對話內容，也都會發出會心的一笑，我們需要找到對的位置、對的產業、對的市場，才能夠發揮最大的效益。

不要輕忽團隊中潛在的能手

你 也許在公司裡管理著許多人，你確定你的團隊裡沒有一位林書豪嗎？你怎麼確定那位「阿明」或「小慧」沒辦法在某個專案大展身手呢？我們習慣把人貼上標籤，他 來自哈佛、是個亞裔美人，看起來應該是不太能打，你對一些人已經先有偏見了嗎？你覺得你會不會就是金州勇士隊或者休士頓火箭隊的教練，讓高手從你手中溜走 了呢？

紐約時報記者，Howard Beck這樣形容林書豪「 If you gathered everyone who overlooked or underestimated Lin over the last several years, you could fill Times Square.」，我們已經在魔球（Moneyball）的小說與電影裡聽過類似的故事，我希望我自己未來不會犯同樣的錯誤，不管是對團隊或者是對人。（但我認為我還是會，只能不斷的告訴自己不要這樣）

不要試著當別人的影子

人們會愛的是最初的你，你永遠都不會是喬登第二，你只要當你自己，這不代表你不需要努力，而是你要找到你在行的事情，並做他，粉絲們會像瘋狂追隨著林書豪般的追隨你。

不要試著當某一個知名人物，我們不會是賈伯斯、布林、馬克或者是保羅。葛拉漢，我們可以試著融合並由他們的故事學習經驗為自己所用，但只會模仿的結果，就好像邯鄲學步，不僅失去自己的特質，還可能貽笑大方。

保持謙虛

如果你有一天被放上報紙頭版以促進銷量，不要被衝昏頭。且看林書豪在接受媒體採訪時的謙遜，這會讓他的隊友以及球迷更愛他。

不管是因為任何上電視、上報紙、上臺接受表揚、演講，都要記得自己是誰，將榮耀歸於自己的團隊，光環只是一時，與人相處及自己的平常心，才會是長久的。

試著讓你週遭的人看起來很棒

他們也會更愛你，更早之前，根本不會知道Tyson Chandler多行，但直到他跟林書豪一起打球的表現，同時，林的吸引防守後的妙傳讓Chandler可 以數次輕易的灌籃，這是部份為什麼尼克隊近期可以表現得這麼好的原因，他們不會自幹，打得是團體戰，使得球賽特別的好看，而當媒體在盛讚林書豪時，他也不 會忘記讚美隊友，所以也這樣對你的同僚或在報告中做類似的事。縱使你是團隊中閃耀的明星，但是別忽略了團隊合作與士氣的重要性，在許多時候，需要的是一個 同心協力的團隊，而不是一個只會單打獨鬥的明星。

不要忘記運氣或命運在生命中的重要性

有些人相信上帝、有些人相信命運、有些人相信運氣，不管你相信哪種，請充滿感激。我自己某種程度上，相信運氣其實在很多關鍵性時刻扮演了許多重要的角色，往回頭看，就好像賈伯斯的史丹佛演講所說的「Connecting the dots」，這些充滿運氣的點，終究會引領成你現在的線，每個點也許都是運氣、命運或者是神的旨意，不管你怎麼稱呼它，接受他並且享受他吧。

courtesy of 莊舍的部落格

焖

听着你爱的歌，
看着你的照片。
但，
一切的思念，
只能往肚里吞。
你，
像个影子，
若隐若现。
封锁在心里的情怀，
始终无法获得表达。

奕斌
847am

深深

深蓝的泪，
深夜的寂寞，
心里深处，
深深痛着...

让静谧的月夜，
焚烧精神的灵魂。

奕斌
1216am

太看重感情的人都是这样的...

而我...竟差不多每一题都中！ 好还是坏呢? =S


奕斌
317pm

我只是一个22岁的少男...

乘着新年带来的喜悦，
很开朗的面对即将来临的考试。
然而，
今天的 消息抹杀了整个气氛，
犹如放晴的天空,
突然布满乌云...

Elective posting本来是好事，
但偏偏我倒霉，
不懂要如何找时间去参与。
那也就算了吧。
更紧张的是，
我只像个寄主，
现在无依无靠，
毫无养分的情况下，
还要硬着头皮面对迎面而来的狂风暴雨。
寄生虫，
原来只在我这里栖息。
它们飞了，走了，
我懵然不知，
留下我愚昧的守着，
无人的绿林。

飞禽走兽都搬迁了。
还以为会和寄生虫会一起搬走的我，
陷入水深火热的状态。
野火烧着来了，
我能不能连根拔起，
还是个未知数。
它们搬了，
搬去一个快乐的天堂。
我也，
渐渐的被遗忘。
想当天那么的和我要好，
以为会同甘共苦的寄生虫，
如今却素不相识。

我连累了我的树叶，
他们也有被火烧尽的可能性。
事到如今，
抱歉只是一种嘲笑；
关心也不过是种讽刺。

我想当个平常人，
平常的医学学生，
安心地去考试，
过个正常的生活。
我只不过是个22岁的少男...

奕斌
407pm

流泪了

每当思念你的日子
如此思念着你的日子里
想念你 又流泪了
哽咽着终于还是咽下了
我爱你 这句话
随风放飞-遥寄远方
那句 我想你
无法言传的话语化成了一声长长的叹息
流逝在我心间

奕斌
600pm

梦

像个傻瓜，独自呢喃你的名字。笑了好久，哭了好久，渐渐的陷入梦乡...

















双手空空跌坐在柔软的沙堆里，好疼...我大声呼喊，我抓狂，跑了又跑，还是在无边无际的沙漠里团团转。阵阵狂沙向我扑过来，让眼睛都睁不开。像小孩，一屁股坐在沙上。寂寞不断蹂躏我的灵魂；思绪徘徊在遥远的天空。

我又茫然了，也懵然了。我需要方向，更需要依靠...想醒过来，但始终没法做到...


奕斌
540pm

Breathing Penang Air

Yeah...back in penang after yesterday's sad case ( decided to return to KL after being stuck in the massive jam. Traveled only 20+ km after 3 hours...zzz) . Arrived here at 830am.

Ah...what a nice feeling to start the Chinese New Year. Books free for at least 4 days =)

The morning air seems to be fresher than ever, perhaps due to the joyous mood surrounding me.

Hello Penang !















Heading back to the island from the Penang Bridge


















On my right side. Can u spot Komtar?


















Coastal highway















Komtar! with 1st Avenue in the picture and Prangin Mall behind it


Aw...i miss Penang >.<


Yikping
925am

想你的时候，
有没有流泪的权利?
想你，
既开心，又失落...

思念的雨

窗外的西风，
轻轻的把我叫醒。
心绪随着那一抹风拉长，
呼唤着，
思念你的情怀。

下雨了。
调皮的雨滴，
不规律地在窗口的镜片上，
奏出思念的旋律。

思念，
是一种幸福的忧伤，
是一种甜蜜的惆怅，
是一种温馨的痛苦。


奕斌
725pm

Letter to Jean

To my team leader Jean,

I'm suffocating again. I know it's friday night, and with all the reason to be joyous, my mood has taken an all day low now. Painted on my face was the weary look that would shrug off all the euphoria of what is supposed to be the best night of the week. Yet, i suffer in silence.

Perhaps, I'm just expecting too much out of myself. Pushing myself beyond my limits, and off my limits. I just feel like a spring that has lost its potential elasticity after a period of time shouldering the weight of life. The spring that somehow used to recoil whenever there is a chance to do so is now just non other than an ordinary coiled metal, staying put at its original position.

I could still recall the upbeat mood after we headed home after a long days work in the ward. It was so relaxing and the sky seems to be smiling at us, bathing us with its warm rays that penetrated into our hearts and minds. Now the darkish night sky seems to overpower that upbeat mood and send me into a realm of depression and uncertainty. I'm starting to worry about the weekend ahead. I started to notice everyone burying their heads in the midst of books while I literally enjoyed life by sleeping and shopping.

On paper, i have the whole weekend to catch up on my books. However, practically, things do not always go the way you want them too. There is an AGM looming ahead on Sunday morning, and perhaps some unseen catastrophes that will ruin my remaining afternoon, or perhaps even Saturday if I'm so damn unlucky.


So leader, am i heading towards the right direction or am I just simply swerving and drifting away from the right track. If the former, please inspire me. If the latter, please guide me back. I'm afraid I was just thinking too much and worrying too much, in a disorder called depression.


Your Surveyor
Yik Ping
832pm