When bad turns to worse

Due to limited internet access in Hosp. UKM(HUKM) , it's just so frustrating to be without internet connection in my room.

It has been almost 2 weeks since i entered HUKM for the clinical years, that is my 3rd years. We are currently having 4 weeks of basic clinical skills before entering the real postings. Supposedly relaxing and to be accustomed with the clinical life, i found myself always racing against time to get things right. The pressure is already mounting in the O&G wards. Nothing much is going to help as the doctors screw you right and tight. It's a total contrast to my mood of relaxing and hanging around before the real postings start. No fun dude !

Frankly, i had been playing rather lot XD But when meetings and ward rounds are concerned , i just can't reignite the passion and inner strength needed. Dragging my slagging body and lethargic mind around is just as terrible as being a slave of my life. When will things change?

Life was once a bed of roses . Now , it's a carpet of thorns. It's pricky and always catches me unaware. Once again , i sunk into the dungeons of uncertainty. I'm scared. I cried for help but there was no one except me , wading through the waters of unknown depth. Regrets are amassing in my mind as days pass by without any sense of being sorry.

I can't tell anything now.It's just so bleak , so worrying and so sophisticated. I need an answer soon . A good answer. But tell me , will i be able to accept the truth?

yikping
801am

TIME CAPSULE

Holidays are just about to end in a weeks time.The true side of me will again be locked into the time capsule , set to be released some day when holidays come waiving at me.Replacing it will be the guy who is always rushing for things , emo , stressed-up , selfish and unfriendly. There doesn't seem to be a cure for the me in academic weeks. Life is about work and work and work.Those that had a chance to see me in the holidays will see the true me, ever zestful and optimistic.

As the countdown begins , the surrounding air gets heated up with tension and emotions.I'm starting to feel uneasy again . Tasks that are always trying to gun me down. Drowning in medical stuff once again , I can't really wait to reopen the time capsule...

A emotionless and introvert me , awaits...

yikping
1058pm

夏

五月的温馨，
袭以我芬芳。
掠过的暖风，
唤醒了蜷缩在角落的灵魂。

谁会在露珠的酝酿中醒过来,
谁会在苍凉的梦乡中放烟花,
谁会在月夜的静谧中看星星.

我对你的思念，
是一场永不停止的爱情假期.

奕斌
1212am